Kylo Ren would never admit it, but there were times when, deep in solitary meditation when his mind (as far as he could tell) was entirely his own, he dreamed about what life might have been like if he were born without the Force. If he could have been part of the agricorps, a merchant, a trader. After encountering Rey, he even wondered what it might have been like to be a scavenger.
But those simply weren't options.
Snoke was courting his mind since he was old enough to cry about the monsters under his bed. They were never the bed, though. They were inside his head. Traveling with Luke would make it all go away, they told him. They never wanted you anyway, Snoke replied. In a way, slaughtering the other Jedi was comforting. They had a way out that he never did. They didn't have to live with being torn apart.
"The Supreme Leader says that killing you will stop the pain I feel..." He admitted softly. The fact that he was saying it instead of doing it meant he had his doubts.
Had Han tried to take him prisoner, to make him return to the Resistance or to Luke Skywalker, it would have been so easy to focus on his rage and strike the man down. But instead, he just... he treated him like a person instead of a tool to be wielded, clay to be sculpted or a prize to be won.
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Date: 2016-06-09 05:22 pm (UTC)But those simply weren't options.
Snoke was courting his mind since he was old enough to cry about the monsters under his bed. They were never the bed, though. They were inside his head. Traveling with Luke would make it all go away, they told him. They never wanted you anyway, Snoke replied. In a way, slaughtering the other Jedi was comforting. They had a way out that he never did. They didn't have to live with being torn apart.
"The Supreme Leader says that killing you will stop the pain I feel..." He admitted softly. The fact that he was saying it instead of doing it meant he had his doubts.
Had Han tried to take him prisoner, to make him return to the Resistance or to Luke Skywalker, it would have been so easy to focus on his rage and strike the man down. But instead, he just... he treated him like a person instead of a tool to be wielded, clay to be sculpted or a prize to be won.