For all the insight that the Force had given him, Ben Solo didn't really know how to look within for the answers he sought. Even Kylo Ren begged his grandfather's spirit to show him the meaning of the dark side as much as he asked the Supreme Leader for guidance.
That much was obvious, and only proven once again when he struggled at first to answer the question. But instead of simply shouting back, or claiming that someone like Han would never understand, he thought about it. He seriously thought about it.
They were both sitting in the galley by the time he answered. "...it's an extension of my body. And my senses."
It made him feel special and powerful, but at the end of the day, it was a tool that he wielded more than anything else. He never felt the peaceful connection to the universe that Luke rambled about, and even under the Supreme Leader's tutelage his hatred was far from bottomless. To him, the Force was more practical - he used it in the same ways it had been used on him.
"I used to think it was some kind of nightmare. Hearing things, feeling things. It actually hurt. I remember... I was terrified of it when I was little." He confessed. "Luke always said it bound and penetrated us, and I guess he was half right. The Force is a weapon. I just... have to do more damage than gets done to me."
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Date: 2016-06-30 02:05 am (UTC)That much was obvious, and only proven once again when he struggled at first to answer the question. But instead of simply shouting back, or claiming that someone like Han would never understand, he thought about it. He seriously thought about it.
They were both sitting in the galley by the time he answered. "...it's an extension of my body. And my senses."
It made him feel special and powerful, but at the end of the day, it was a tool that he wielded more than anything else. He never felt the peaceful connection to the universe that Luke rambled about, and even under the Supreme Leader's tutelage his hatred was far from bottomless. To him, the Force was more practical - he used it in the same ways it had been used on him.
"I used to think it was some kind of nightmare. Hearing things, feeling things. It actually hurt. I remember... I was terrified of it when I was little." He confessed. "Luke always said it bound and penetrated us, and I guess he was half right. The Force is a weapon. I just... have to do more damage than gets done to me."