Han feels like it's more the influence of Snoke on him than people legitimately looking at his kid like there was something wrong with him. He would have been throwing a lot more punches, he thinks, if that was the case. Some of the fine details of family relationships aren't intuitive to him, but he does try protect his own. Always.
"Your hair." He says with the faintest of smiles. "They'd often say something about your hair when they would see you for the first time. How dark it was or how much you had at a young age. It always grew fast and thick."
In his mind, it was undeniably Solo hair. Or like his in the way it laid on his head and grew out, anyway.
"Or that you seemed very serious."
His memories about arguing may have skewed a little closer to the truth. Yes. There was a time when Han and Leia were both worried about Ben and that was why some of those arguments began, but he's giving himself far too much credit if he thinks he was somehow 'the problem'. The two of them were having arguments before they brought their son into this universe and clearly, having the boy gone to be with Luke didn't allow them to suddenly live in bliss.
If anything, that decision had made it worse.
The status of his marriage was not something he was going to be able to explain to his son with a few clarifying words. "Things with your mother and I are ... difficult to explain. We do love each other though and we love you." The storm of feelings in him that his son might not be able to help but feel will confirm that his feelings are complicated.
"You do know that you being a jedi matters very little to me, don't you?" He points out. "I'm proud when you work hard for something and when you act like a good man. If that comes in the form of a master of the force, then fine, but I could care less if it was some other interest you had."
... Han might blame a preoccupation with that mystical energy field for why his family is so messed up right now. While he can't deny the existence of the the force any longer, it's not as if doesn't have his reservations. Life without it seems simpler ...
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Date: 2016-07-10 03:56 pm (UTC)"Your hair." He says with the faintest of smiles. "They'd often say something about your hair when they would see you for the first time. How dark it was or how much you had at a young age. It always grew fast and thick."
In his mind, it was undeniably Solo hair. Or like his in the way it laid on his head and grew out, anyway.
"Or that you seemed very serious."
His memories about arguing may have skewed a little closer to the truth. Yes. There was a time when Han and Leia were both worried about Ben and that was why some of those arguments began, but he's giving himself far too much credit if he thinks he was somehow 'the problem'. The two of them were having arguments before they brought their son into this universe and clearly, having the boy gone to be with Luke didn't allow them to suddenly live in bliss.
If anything, that decision had made it worse.
The status of his marriage was not something he was going to be able to explain to his son with a few clarifying words. "Things with your mother and I are ... difficult to explain. We do love each other though and we love you." The storm of feelings in him that his son might not be able to help but feel will confirm that his feelings are complicated.
"You do know that you being a jedi matters very little to me, don't you?" He points out. "I'm proud when you work hard for something and when you act like a good man. If that comes in the form of a master of the force, then fine, but I could care less if it was some other interest you had."
... Han might blame a preoccupation with that mystical energy field for why his family is so messed up right now. While he can't deny the existence of the the force any longer, it's not as if doesn't have his reservations. Life without it seems simpler ...